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Reason To Sing

Chapter Thirty-Eight

No Big Deal

I am feeling like a new race car driver, drunk on speed, danger
and recklessness. Navigating between euphoria and paralyzing
fear. I’m crazy in love with Gord and unbelievably relieved to
finally be free of Hudson. But my rattled nerves are also real.
Maybe it’s because Hudson has, for so long, played every single
care-giving role in my life. And now I don’t have that security
blanket. He was everything from lover to parent to friend to
confidante to therapist to family to business partner. In the
beginning I embraced them all. But time has passed, and I’ve
grown up. I’m a hell of a lot stronger and I don’t want to be
controlled anymore.
So why do I feel all these mixed emotions?
There is still business to attend to and today’s news adds
further fuel to the flames. For weeks now I’ve been waiting to
hear from Nashville about my deal with Capitol Records. Day
after day and nothing. Until today.
The phone rings and it is Hudson. My heart automatically
relocates to my mouth, but I take a deep breath and wait. He
gets right to the point. “I heard from Capitol Records today.”
“And?” I am anxious to hear. My gut is churning.
“Well, it’s not good news.”
“What? What do you mean it’s not good news?” Now my
gut has joined my heart. I feel ill.
“Well, it’s just not. The president, Jim Fogelsong, was fired.”
I lean against the wall to stop myself from crumbling to the
floor. “Seriously? Who’s the new one coming in?”

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