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Chapter Thirty-Nine

showcase at the famous Bluebird Cafe, one of the world’s
preeminent listening rooms. As Hudson begins to network
with record companies in Nashville, he also begins another
kind of networking. The romance kind. I get wind he is dating
someone. I am mortified to realize I am actually jealous! I guess
it’s a kind of self-protection. What IF he can be an amazing
loving person with someone else? Is Hudson really changing?
Could he be the man I have always wanted him to be? Might
there be a glimmer of hope stirring? I am feeling strangely
loving the more we talk on the phone. It’s messing with my
head.
The Bluebird confirms a date for my showcase. My flight
is booked. Nashville musicians are hired and Hudson is busy
securing the A & R reps from all the major labels. I’m impressed
with what he’s accomplishing. When Hudson is on a mission
there’s no stopping him. I do admire that.
Weirdly, I’m looking forward to seeing him. Even happy.
I’m feeling a nervous excitement. Obviously, the whole idea
of me going down to Nashville and seeing my ex again is not
sitting well with Gord. How can I blame him? I would feel
exactly the same if it were me. As much as I have kept my
confused feelings about Hudson to myself, I know Gord’s
aware of what I have been experiencing the past several weeks.
He’s not a stupid man.
I fly direct from Toronto to Nashville. Luxury. I have made
that 12-hour drive many times before. But money is tight, so
I have agreed to stay with Hudson. I know, I know … call me
crazy! My understanding is that there are two bedrooms in his
apartment. That should be okay, right? I rationalize that this is
strictly business and it makes financial sense.
The plane lands and I spot Hudson off in the distance,
waiting for me. With his long and lanky physique, he’s not hard

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