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Reason To Sing

Chapter Forty-Eight

Homecoming

Well, here we are. What was once my greatest nightmare has
now become my living reality. After only five years of marriage,
dwelling apart is certainly not what I imagined. However,
despite everything, Gord and I appear to be adjusting quite
agreeably.
The images of my husband and Lenora continue to burn
into my psyche daily. Knowing the ‘other woman’ personally
makes this even more difficult to manage; the betrayal is
twofold! How can I turn to my best friend for support when
she is the cause of my pain? I have nowhere to go for comfort
and advice. And my constant obsessing over our future makes
me feel like a madwoman.
But I am not. I am a mother with a pulse and a responsibility
to take care of my boy. Thank God for that.
Most days, I purposefully welcome the mundane. Cleaning
toilets, folding laundry, listening to my chatty neighbor. I need
this sanitized sense of normalcy. I know that without it, the
over-analyzing and fixating will truly drive me mad. So, I put
one foot in front of the other and just keep marching.
It works. I am getting much better. Plus, I have a new
album coming out, which is a good diversion and honestly
quite exhilarating.
Even though Gord and I are residing in different spaces,
there is a silver lining. With the recording studio in our home,
it’s necessary for Gord to work here most weekdays. Over the
past month Keldon and I have seen him a lot. I’m grateful that

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