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Him and know Him. He wanted a relationship with me.

Shortly after this time period, Roy came over to see
me, and unfortunately, we were physically intimate, even
though I had no interest in getting back together with him.
I’m not sure if he had an interest either. I don’t remember. I
remember telling Roy about what I had learned about Jesus

Christ. I was starting to understand Jesus, but I hadn’t fully
submitted to His Lordship yet.

I continued to read my Bible and pray. I also
continued to read Gondwe's books. During this time, my
psychiatrist suggested that I take a new medicine to reduce
the voices. I took the new medication one night. I could still

hear voices, but they were faint. However, the dose made me
sleepy and knocked me out.

After that night, I believed God wanted me to work on
the root of the problems. If I just covered up the symptoms,
the problem or problems would still be there. If I didn't see

that a problem existed, I wouldn't be able to work on it. Plus,
I was not a danger to myself or others, so I decided to
discontinue taking anymore medication, other than
Adderall. I do not recommend anyone doing this without first
praying about it and speaking to his or her doctor.

God wanted my mind focused on Him and His Word.

I wouldn’t be able to do that on strong medication that made
my brain foggy and susceptible to hearing and absorbing lies.
There was a significant battle going on for my mind, and I

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