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had a hard time controlling my own thoughts on the

medication.

I told my psychiatrist that I didn’t want any more
medication and that it was a spiritual issue. She respected my
decision. I kept reading the Bible and praying for God to help
me. I kept asking God if He would close the spiritual realm,

but nothing changed right away. I finally realized that
perhaps I needed to accept what I was hearing and that it may
be a part of His plan for me. I finally told God that I would
listen to the voices and accept the fact that He wants me to
hear them.

I had been learning discernment through hearing the

voices. I was learning so much from reading God’s Word,
hearing voices of light, and then hearing the enemy’s voice.
It was tough because I had learned that the enemy’s voice can
sound like a voice of light.

“And no marvel; for even Satan fashioneth
himself into an angel of light.” 2 Corinthians
11:14 KJV

A lot of who I thought was God was Satan, especially
that condemning voice, and that voice that told me that I
could have fame and wealth, if I would just worship him. I

realized that God wasn’t having me seek fame, wealth, and
stuff. He knew those things were not what I needed. Look at
all the people who have fame and wealth who are miserable.
I learned that God is Holy, and He is a being who created me,

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