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Chapter Twelve

Jesus Christ Changes Lives

THE DEMONIC VOICES had begun to fade. I started to hear
love and encouragement most of the time. After reading the
Bible, I had still gone out with friends to clubs, but my
perception was beginning to change. Unfortunately, the day
I made the September 17, 2008, journal entry, I was coming
down off the same street drug I had taken recently. That

night I experienced unbearable mental and spiritual agony. I
was hurting bad. I clearly knew God was asking me if I
wanted to follow Him. I didn’t hear this as an audible voice.
I just knew that Jesus Christ was asking me that question.

This was the first time in my life that I felt like I had to make
a choice right then. I understood. I could keep on following
myself, or I could lose my life for Jesus, and follow Him.

I was afraid to say “yes” because I was afraid of the
unknown and didn’t know what God had planned for me. I

knew in my heart that if I chose Him, I was telling Him to do
whatever He wanted with me. I then asked God what He
would do with me if I said “yes.” I told Him that I didn’t want
to be like Mother Teresa, but I knew that my life couldn’t get

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