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Chapter Eleven
I curl up in my bed and stare at it.
I’m almost fini shed with it. There aren’ t ver y many more ent ries .
I pick up the journa l and place it on the pillow bes ide me.
“I’m no t going to rea d you,” I whi sper.
Altho ugh, if I rea d wha t’s lef t, I’ll be fini shed . Having seen Atlas
toni ght and kno wing he ha s a girlfriend and a job and more tha n
likel y a ho me is eno ugh closure I need on tha t cha pter. And if I just
fini sh the damn journa l, I can put it back in the sho eb ox and nev er
ha ve to open it again.
I fina lly pick it up and roll ont o my back. “Ellen DeG ene res , you
are such a bitch. ”
Dear Ellen,
“Just keep swimming.”
Recognize that quote, Ellen? It’s what Dor y say s to Mar lin in Find ing
Nem o.
“Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.”
I’m not a hu ge fan of car toons, but I’ll give you props for that one. I like
car toons that can mak e you lau gh, but al so mak e you feel somethi ng. After
today, I thi nk that ’s my fav orite car toon. Be cau se I’ve been feeling like
drowning lat ely, an d sometimes people need a reminde r that the y just need to
keep swimming.
Atlas got sick. Li ke real ly sick.
He’s been craw ling through my windo w an d sleeping on the floor for a few
night s in a row now, but las t night , I knew somethi ng was wrong as soon as I
looked at hi m. It was a Sunday, so I hadn ’t seen hi m since the night before, but
he looked aw ful. His eyes were bloods ho t, hi s skin was pal e, an d even tho ugh it
was cold, hi s hai r was sweat y. I di dn ’t even as k if he was feeling okay, I
al ready knew he was n’t. I put my han d on hi s forehe ad an d he was so ho t, I
al most yelled for my mothe r.