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viewing my body. At the same time, I was reading the obituary, the

funny thing was I could not see in the obituary what it was I died of.

I kept hearing the phone ringing and ringing and ringing in the

background. Christine had been trying to reach me all night and

morning and became worried when I did not answer. She started a
telephone campaign. She called daddy, she called mama, she called Dr.
C., she called my niece, she called the pastor, she called everyone she

thought could reach me. So, the phone would not stop ringing and I

had no choice but to wake up and answer the phone. My niece called
and I told her I was alright. I could not let her know how the strong

Aunt she had looked up to was crumbling. My mama called and I lied
to her. Lastly, the pastor called, he stayed on the phone with me for

about two hours preaching the bible. He kept talking about this person
in the bible named “Job.” I told him I knew nothing about Job; and

how I knew there was no one else who had experienced my depth of
loss.

Nadia had given me the King James Version of the Bible. It was
the first time I had seen a Bible without the le and la's. I could read

and understand what the bible was teaching and after hearing so much
about Job I was forced to read about Job and how he survived his

losses. I did get some comfort after reading Job's story and began to

see how God had worked in Job's life. This God seemed to be cool,
the God which I had been taught about in Catholicism was a "Mean

God." The Job story helped me to understand God was not punishing
me but perhaps testing my faith. I began to realize how brainwashed

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