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rowing up, I have always wondered why I had to endure so much heartache and
pain. In nearly four decades of living, I’ve had to deal with the murders of three
loved ones, the suicide of a sibling and the death of a god-sister who lost her battle
G cancer. In addition to death, I experienced unemployment, brokenness and
to
homelessness. While experiencing the things that life presented to me I felt overwhelmed,
lost, alone, misunderstood and hopeless.

It was during my late teenage years when these emotions began to get the best of me. I re-
member preparing for my final exams during my freshman year of college and I could not sleep
nor focus. I began to worry about the things that I had no control over and I eventually lost in-
terest in the things that I used to care about the most. Something was wrong! My routine
consisted of eating, bathing and sleeping…..nothing else!!! It was not long afterwards that I
went to my doctor to attempt to discuss my feelings. I was DEPRESSED. This was not just a
feeling but something that affected my ability to work, socialize and function normally.

How could a saved, loving, and blessed intellectual be faced with this mental illness? I grew up
in the church and gave my life to Christ at the age of fourteen. My family lived a comfortable
lifestyle and I was a great person. I was taught that Christians were “too blessed to be de-
pressed.” I should not be dealing with depression.

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