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I do not see myself not putting my heart and thoughts into readable words. My mind is flooded with them. If I can still

remember my life with Joyselyn, I will always add to this journal.

I never want to forget the love we shared. Never want to forget my Joyselyn. Age sometimes has a way of robbing us
of our past and our memories. I feel so lost, so empty after seven months without my love. Do not want any more
memories or my heart to end up like driftwood on a deserted shore. What I had was useless to anyone but me, but if

you…the reader has come this far; I pray there has been something in it for you. Maybe a new way of seeing your life
or that one you share your life with. It is never too late for healing. Our Heavenly Father is always there to fill any

void. Replace any bitterness, hurt, anger, guilt, and, yes, even grief; it makes no difference. He is faithful to forgive and
make new. We must be willing to trust and let Him into our lives. Just as you are forgiven, you must also learn to
forgive yourself and anyone you feel has harmed you.

July 22, 2020

My Joyselyn was always a new song every morning. Hearing her name mentioned or my speaking it aloud was rhythmic.
Even now, I say her name, and comfort falls around me. If I could only have been a composer, maybe a masterpiece may

have been created. No theme music heard that could accompany her loveliness and grace. My heart will no more be in
tune with this life without my Joyselyn.

July 23, 2020

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