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Chapter Forty-Four

so frustrated. I don’t know if screaming and yelling would help,
although I feel like I want to. He just seems to be lost in his own
world or something. He doesn’t share much of anything. Not
like he used to. Not even close.”
“Oh wow,” Lenora murmurs in a hushed tone. “That’s tough.”
“Yes, it definitely is.” I take my time before I ask the next
question. “Can I ask you something really personal?”
“Sure,” she responds, a bit hesitantly.
“What are things like for you and Bobby in the way of
physical intimacy?” There’s silence at the other end and I quickly
apologize. “I’m sorry, maybe I shouldn’t have asked that. You
don’t have to answer.”
“No, it’s okay. We don’t really have much of that going on.”
“Is that because of you or him?” I am peppering her with
questions, and I know this is really personal, but I just need to
find out. I need something to compare us to!
“I’m not really interested anymore. I haven’t been for a long
time now.” Lenora sounds quite matter-of-fact.
“I’m sorry to hear that. Must be hard.” Why is she not
interested? I sure as heck am still interested. I don’t get it. “What
about Bobby?”
“Sometimes, yeah, and then I have to do what I have to do.
Not very often though.”
This all sounds just like Gord and me, only in reverse. “Do
you still love him?” I have to ask. Only because I have no idea if
Gord truly still loves me.
Lenora responds quietly. “I love him but I’m not in love with
him. There’s a big difference.”
I remember. I felt the same about Hudson and it was literally
poison for our relationship. “I know. Of course there is. But isn’t
it hard being in a marriage where you don’t feel that passionate
kind of love anymore?”

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