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not to forgive. Now that I began choosing
to forgive and putting it into practice, I
thought I had conquered the holding of
grudges. But feelings of unforgiveness
would again rear its ugly head. I realized
I was still not totally released from the
clutches and torment of holding on to
unforgiveness.

Once again, I found myself full of
resentment and bitterness. I recalled one
offense after another. Complaints and
tears flowed easily – too easily! To say
the words, “I forgive,” didn't make the
feelings go away. I would cry out to God,
“Help me forgive.” I'd say the words and
think it was done. But later, those old
feelings would return. Where was the
permanent inner peace I so wanted?

Why was this happening? The action
of continuing to forgive had not yet be-
come a common response in my heart. I
would say the words, “I forgive,” but the
tension was still controlling my body. The

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