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crowded pub or around little ones. My new boob is
basically very fragile and trying to heal itself to my body
and literally feels like it going to "break" if I so much as
move wrong so if someone accidentally bumps into me it
could be disastrous. I also have a horrid tube coming out
from the side of my chest leading into a pump and a
drain which I have to carry around with me in a bag
everywhere - basically collecting the blood that’s pissing
outa me - Sooooo gross. I really don’t want that getting
accidentally pulled out. That could have horrendous
consequences and besides I have no dresses that I could
accessorise with medical piping either.
GRRrrrrrrrrr! SOooo frustrating! The 1st thing I want to
do when I see someone is hug them and I can’t!

28 February 2015 —
Well this is a giant pain in the arse! One boob bandaged up
like a mummy, right under arm and top of arm has
absolutely no feeling at all, a meter of plastic tubing
coming out of my chest with a pump and a drain bag -
absolutely F***ing gross, a bag I have to carry around
with me all the sodding time as if I’m off on a paper
round. Can’t lift anything, can’t hug anyone and can’t go
to the pub, still bald. Look shite; feel about as attractive
as a Hippocrocapig! ad enough of it!!

28 February 2015 —
Hmmm apparently I need to keep checking my boobs…
can’t remember this being mentioned by the surgeon but
I’m going along with it.
Before I was diagnosed with the breast cancer he
"examined" them. That consisted of him taking one