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Broken but Still Anointed…

The Bible speaks of a woman in Luke 7:36 who is de- I realized that this God was with me all the time;
scribed as a sinful woman. Some theologians argue the through the failed marriages, through the homeless-
fact that she is a prostitute, nevertheless she is no differ- ness, betrayal, abortion, heart aches, and through the
ent than you and I. Sin is sin. The Bible declares in 1 molestation. He was there through it all.
John 5:17 that all unrighteousness is sin.
It was this omniscient God that had a plan for me. He
One of the problems that I see in our religious culture said in Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the thoughts that
today is that we want to differentiate sin. We think that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace,
our small white sin is different than the deep dark black and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”
sin of someone else. But this certainly is not true. We all
have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. His plan was to anoint me even in my brokenness. I
learned pretty quickly that salvation is free, but the
As I studied this nameless woman in Luke, I realized anointing of God has a cost. It has cost me my life. It
that she and I had so many similarities. Both females, cost daily dying of myself. Going through the fire and
both sinners and both needed God to redeem us from a fury to be called one of His. As I go through trials and
decaying lifestyle. When I was in the world, I didn’t sell tribulations, I often take a look at Christ’s life and re-
my body, one would say that I just gave it away. No alize that if I want to be in His image, I have to allow
money was ever exchanged, only expectation. I expected Him to pull what He has placed in me out for some-
to be loved but instead, I received rejection. Why, be- one else. So I will go through the crushing process to
cause God never intended love to be that way. reach the countless women/men that are voiceless and
hopeless. To tell them that there is a better way, and
The one thing I can remember my mother telling me His name is Jesus.
was, “Don’t ever shack with a man, they won’t buy the
milk if you give it to them for free!” I really never un-
derstood that term until adulthood, but oh how I under-
stand it now. Conversely, what this did was push me into
failed marriages. I didn’t know how to have a healthy
dating life. I felt that I needed to be married, because I
remembered exactly what my mother said; I couldn’t
give my milk away for free.

I wish I would have been told that my milk was precious
and that it should be preserved and protected for the one
man that deserves to partake in such a treasurable piece
of me. I never discerned this… hence my brokenness
began.

I use to think that I was the only person in the world bro-
ken. I would try to hide my brokenness behind my cloth-
ing and my hair do’s. I would also try to hide it behind
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and gave His life for me.