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30     EASTERN HORIZON  |  TEACHINGS








           After becoming a Buddhist, I started to understand that   them, but it is probably unlikely to have them welcomed
           life is not about achieving certain results; rather, it is   with open arms. A clear example would be the post of
           about maintaining a peaceful and joyful mind during   the volunteer moderator or the volunteer host of an
           both good times and bad.”                          event at the center. This post is always vacant, because
                                                              it is generally acknowledged to be the most difficult
           Time flies by in the blink of an eye and year’s end   job. Everyone would pick the easy jobs - jobs that work
           arrives without us noticing.                       behind the scenes, jobs that don’t require thinking or
                                                              resourcefulness, jobs that won’t have interactions with
           Our New Year’s resolutions were so positive and    the public, jobs that won’t put one on the spot, etc. In
           expansive, yet were we able to edge closer to tranquility   other words, we choose to pick out a favorable and
           and stillness by the year’s end?                   secure environment for ourselves.


           At the end of the year, Malaysians are generally busy   Favorable conditions can bring us ease of mind, but our
           trying to vacation abroad. How many people would   life can stagnate because of this.
           seriously reflect on the past year and think about
           whether they have closed in on their New Year’s    There was once when I lacked confidence in the face
           resolutions? Perhaps we shouldn’t speak of closing in –   of an ordeal. But I also did not want other people to
           more likely than not, we have forgotten what our New   feel uneasy either, so I prayed with all my heart for
           Year’s resolutions were. “A new year is going to arrive,   everything to go safely, healthily, happily, smoothly,
           so why not save ourselves the headache and just make   and perfectly. After completing my practice that night,
           new resolutions!”                                  I transferred the merits as usual to wish for the ordeal
                                                              to disappear, and for everything to go superbly and
           After making the resolution, we forget about it. This   smoothly.
           repeats because we think that we will always have
           another chance to keep restarting.                 As I thought about this, I suddenly came to a realization.
                                                              Perhaps what the Buddhas and the bodhisattvas are
           Life cannot be repeated like that. Therefore, although   hearing from us is not the, “Let everything be peaceful,
           the New Year’s resolution is important, our reflections   healthy, happy, smooth, and perfect.” Instead, they could
           at the end of the year are more important because it   be hearing the hidden meaning behind our words, “I
           acts as a guiding basis for the coming year’s resolutions.   don’t want to grow, I don’t want to improve, I don’t want
           This way, the resolutions will be well-grounded and our   to upgrade, I don’t want to mature, I don’t want to make
           actions, synchronized.                             breakthroughs, I don’t want to overcome myself, etc. So
                                                              whatever happens, don’t let me encounter adversity.”
           Normally, people wish for peace, health, happiness,
           success, perfection, and wish-fulfillment, forever. In   This thought woke me up! Every step we take towards
           other words, people want favorable conditions one after   growth and learning is a result of adversities and
           another.                                           difficulties. If we only wish for good times and want to
                                                              skip over the bad, doesn’t it mean that we have refused
           However, is it really a good thing to only experience   the opportunity to grow?
           favorable conditions?
                                                              As it is, I made these prayers every day – no wonder I
           At the very least, people don’t dislike it, and won’t resist it.  kept stumbling over bumps and just can’t seem to break
                                                              free from the bonds of vexation. It was because I did not
           The adverse situations or difficulties encountered can   have the courage to face adversity that I ended up going
           vary widely. It is already commendable to not avoid   back and forth, staying within my comfort zone.
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