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changed so I’m now in bed wearing satin disco pants and
a sequined evening scarf - at least if i have to be
ambulanced away in the night I’ll be dressed for it

22 January 2015 —
OoAaawwwww Noooo! Here it comes the "Peripheral
Neuropathy". This is 1 of the worst chemo symptoms.
I’m losing all sensation in my body and just feel like I
have been shaken. My whole body feels like its
reverberating and I’ve got no balance, no special
awareness, no sense of temperature or pressure, can’t see
or hear or even taste properly. I’m only mentioning it on
here out of desperation that I think people might be able
to somehow "break" me out of it!! God knows how!
Messages / comments / jokes/ anyone who’s actually
had this that knows of anything you can do? Please God
just hurry up n get me thru this now. This is the last
one......

23 January 2015 —
SHATTERED: I’m so glad to be feeling better than
yesterday and to have been to my counselling assessment
at THE PRIMROSE HOSPICE Bromsgrove today but
now I feel like just that bit of exertion has shattered me
out.
The Primrose place seemed a very nice building and nice
people - I believe mainly volunteers. On the 1 hand I’m
really grateful and appreciative of the service, on the
other; I continue to be disgusted that the voluntary sector
and unpaid volunteers have to plug the gap in services
most people assume the Government provides. I’ve been
in the Mental Health system for 13+ years with diagnoses