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I would rather have burning hot flushes and be drenched
& dripping with sweat every 10 mins all day and night
OR be smothered head to toe in a livid, red rash and
itching like a mad woman. Oh the choices! The endless
glamour of it all!

15 December 2015 —
...to all my Neighbours & Friends who are SO kind and
helpful to me! I struggle so much with even basic things -
getting to appointments, popping to the shop, putting the
bin out, getting down the stairs to the door before the
post man legs it!....and I find myself surrounded by
people (friends but also even neighbours I don’t know
that well) who take it upon themselves to help me
without even being asked. Taking in parcels and bringing
them round to me, putting my bin out & bringing it back
in (I don’t always even know who’s done that! lol)
offering to fetch groceries and medicine, all sorts. I’m
rubbish at "socialising" and struggle to get out n interact
with people sometimes but no act of kindness goes
un-noticed! I’m really grateful and appreciate every
person who helps me and everything they do. THANK
YOU!

17 December 2015 —
This week has been an absolute torturous nightmare of
struggling through pain every day. God it gets wearing.
Please help me keep going God. I get exhausted and
worn down. Since this HRT my migraines and sickness
have come back, I can only manage to be up for about 6
hours a day and worst of all I’ve had an allergic reaction
to it and my skin over my whole body is smothered in a