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G                                                         When someone doesn’t have family around, friends be-
                   od makes no mistakes.  Man may think that a
                   situation they got themselves into was a mis-
                                                                  come their family.  My mother befriended this one fami-
                   take,  but  everything  is  calculated  and  or-
                                                                  ly, but this family had so much dysfunction in it, that
                   dained by God.  There are some that endure
                                                                  my life.  At age 3, the son of this family inappropriately
        hardships in life, but those hardships are there to form us   eventually the dysfunction caused a door to be opened in
        into the people God wants us to be. God created us to     touched me.  To this day, I still do not fully remember
        bring Him pleasure and to give Him Glory, so just the     what actually took place in that old farm house, but I do
        mere fact we were created tells us that we have a purpose   know there is enough evidence that something did hap-
        and destiny.                                              pen.  My mother protected me and I never saw men in
                                                                  and out of our home, but as a young girl (as young as
        The events that occur in our lives shapes who we are and   seven years old) I was sneaking around with the little
        who we become.  I’d like to take this time to share a little   boys in the neighborhood playing, which would some-
        about me.  It begins with a 23-year-old man named Jo-     times lead to inappropriate touching and acts for children
        seph, who came to the United States from Nigeria to pur-  our age.  There would also be times when I was the one
        sue his education.  He became involved in a relationship   who initiated this inappropriate behavior.
        and found out that he was going to be a father.  Immedi-
        ately, Joseph decided he made a mistake and had a plan    As I reflect back my actions and behaviors were an indi-
        to fix it on his own.  Well, the mother did not feel the   cation that a breach occurred and an unwelcome spirit
        same way, so they decided to go their separate ways.      had entered my life.  I want to encourage you that just
                                                                  because  one  can’t  remember  does  not  mean  it  didn’t
        I was that life produced by Joseph’s mistake, but my life                           happen.  Years  after  my
        could not be stopped by the little bit of money he had                              experience  with  him,  he
        given to rectify the situation.  Nope, destiny cannot be                            had gone to jail for charges
        stopped.                                                                            of being a predator and for

        Shortly after my arrival, my mother took me to introduce                            raping  other  family  mem-
        me to my grandparents and great grandparents.  I was                                bers, so I know that it was
        not  what they  expected because  I  was not  like them.                            his presence in my life that
        They didn’t  know how to deal  with  the  fact  I  was a                            opened  the  door  to  these
        mixed child.  This is a lot of pressure for a baby.  Even in                        behaviors. When he would
        the unconscious mind of an infant, the spirit of rejection                          come  around  me  as  an
        planted its seeds that patiently wait for their roots to be   adult I would have this strange feeling and would dis-
        established.                                              tance myself from him.  He passed away about 10 years
                                                                  ago while in prison.
        When I was 18 months old, my mom realized her sup-
        port system in Arkansas was not where she needed it to    In December 2012, I was invited to a church Christmas
        be to raise a child, so she moved to Colorado to be close   program with a co-worker.  I went and enjoyed the ser-
        to her mother.  About six months after her arrival in Col-  vice, it was the first time in my life that I truly felt the
        orado, she found herself in a place with no support and   presence of the Lord.  After the program, I remember
        more responsibility.  Besides being a young mother of a   crying all the way home because of the experience.  We
        toddler, she also became the legal guardian of her two    started  going  to  church  when  I  was  ten  and  stopped
        teen age brothers.  Their mother decided to leave never   when I was eighteen, but I never liked it and never felt
        to be heard from until 22 years later, but that is another   the presence like I did that December night in 2012.  I
        story for another time.
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