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kind of money I was making. She also stated although she was new in

her position, that she felt the office was beginning to look like a black
sorority and she would have to change that. Oh, really now! As always,

I felt in my gut this was a sign of racism. You see it is different in the
South, you knew where you stood with the white folks, they were clear.

In the North, white folks hid it differently, but I always knew
when I felt a sign of racism because of the knot I would get in my

stomach. I knew I had to tread carefully with this company, but at least

I knew I had the proper training from dealing with the other white
women in those other companies. It seems white women had a

problem with me; I do not know if it was because of my height that
they were intimidated. I didn't fit in the FTFWW or Fast Track For

White Women, I was on the BSMU express or Black Sister Moving
Up! Anyway, I watched and learned that black folks are very

emotional, and we wear our emotions on our faces and in our body
language. I had to learn and train myself not to show emotions. I

figured once I showed any emotion they won. I am very competitive,
and I refused to lose. I always kept a smile on my face no matter how

angry they made me. I did not want to give them the satisfaction of

knowing they had gotten to me. I didn't want to show my hand always
had on the "Face".

I was still in shock from being fired and I knew I needed a job. I
accepted the position despite the 13,000-dollar salary cut. I left the

interview and returned home, I had left my niece at the office and
needed to make sure she had gotten home ok. My clients had

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